I'm sorry isn't enough...

All my life all I try to do for people is make them happy. My therapist says I'm a people pleaser, and there's nothing wrong with it. The problem lies in the people that I try to please. Reciprocation - the act of returning the caring, kind feelings that you are given. Yeah, guess what Sam HARDLY gets? Exactly. It's so hard to just do-do-do for people all the time and only get a few things done for me in return from one or two of my friends. It's such a depressing time, high school. I haven't really found myself smiling because I'm truly happy. It's all a big show to get everyone off my back. & now it seems like no one really would care how I felt. Don't lie, face the facts. I'm tired of this bull crap everyone plays on me.

I have a pretty big love for Christ, and I know that he's testing me with all this. But I'm not failing the test this time.

So I guess I'm here to say I'm sorry to a lot of people..

I'm sorry I'm a baby.
I'm sorry I cared.
I'm sorry I tried to put my everything into being there for you.
I'm sorry I was there for you anytime of the day you needed me.
I'm sorry I made you angry.
I'm sorry I was worried when you didn't talk to me.
I'm sorry I made you cry.
I'm sorry I crushed your ideas.
I'm sorry I wasn't really ever in a good mood.
I'm sorry I tried to talk to you about my feelings.
I'm sorry I made you something you aren't.
I'm sorry I got in the way of your relationships.
I'm sorry I've ruined your life.
I'm sorry I broke my promise.
I'm sorry I believed your promises.
I'm sorry I betrayed you.
I'm sorry I'm rude.
I'm sorry I made you leave our family.
I'm sorry I yell at you.
I'm just sorry for everything.

I'm done saving everyone else from themselves.
I'm done saving me.

I'm done.