Autumn

Have you ever just stared out a window for the longest time and thought about nothing in particular? Or maybe you're like me, and have so many things flying through your brain you can't decipher what image goes with what thought, or which way is up or down. I can't get over God's beauty in the fall, with all the leaves changing colors from their regular greens to gorgeous reds, oranges and yellows. It makes me wonder if people normally go through cycles...you know the ones where they're really good, genorous people for a few months, then they get gorgeous and you can't stop looking at them, then they turn cold and barren. I think I've been stuck in this cold and barren state for a few years now, and I finally think the sun's going to come out to warm me up and let me grown some foilage again...but what do you know if a big storm cloud doesn't come to create havoc. My life is getting old right now. I'm tired of helping people through their problems with nothing in return. I'm just tired of everything. Maybe one day it'll all shapen up, but until then, I'll just be here in my spot by the window. Please, don't come in search of me...I'm still trying to find myself.