As I wait for the camp A/V computer to update, I keep thinking about stuff. I wonder if what I make my life out to be is real. I wonder if it's really as hard as it seems, or if I'm making it that way. I know my father was stupid, and he just left out of the blue, but the rest of it: anger, losing friends, unable to think positively, etc; is that real? Is there legitimate cause for it all? It's just a question that goes through my mind everyday. I don't want an answer from anyone. This time, I have to find out the answers on my own.

All my love,