"Everything" by Lifehouse

No words to describe this.

As I wait for the camp A/V computer to update, I keep thinking about stuff. I wonder if what I make my life out to be is real. I wonder if it's really as hard as it seems, or if I'm making it that way. I know my father was stupid, and he just left out of the blue, but the rest of it: anger, losing friends, unable to think positively, etc; is that real? Is there legitimate cause for it all? It's just a question that goes through my mind everyday. I don't want an answer from anyone. This time, I have to find out the answers on my own.

All my love,

Yet, again.

Another best friend has come and gone. God, how good that feels, you know? I'm really disappointed in all my friends from Boonville this summer. Sure, some of you are talking to me, and others are just super busy. But my best friends, who live on the east and west side of Evansville, and my good friend, Selina. They live in EVANSVILLE. And they have the decency to talk to me. It just proves to myself that I really don't have very many friends who care. Thanks guys. You really know how to keep a person happy.

Anyway, I'm pretty much just don't have a summer right now, with summer school for Government and Econ, work between that and then summer musical rehearsal. Which for this next week will run until 9 p.m., the rest of this month and next it varies from 10, 11 and 12 p.m. No sleep? I believe so.

Everything just makes me know less and less about my life everyday. I don't know who to trust, which promises to believe, or what to turn to on this earth. God is my rock and armor, I just need some friends to keep my heart occupied.

With regrets.... I mean regards,