Promises, promises.

Promises are something not meant to be broken, yet people do it every second of every day. Why is this? Is it because the fact that people are destined to be liars and cheaters, to be unfaithful, to be backstabbers? Why on Earth would someone hurt a person most dear to them behind that person's back? Love isn't an emotion that can be toyed with. It has too many other emotions connected with it, and you can't get around them. Cheating on a boyfriend/girlfriend is something that won't go away. Ever. Nothing will ever change that, no matter how small the offense may be.

The person that may have broken the promise loves you very much, no matter how you may feel. He may also have the greatest friend in your boyfriend/girlfriend. He has watched this relationship carry on throughout the year, and has watched the pains, turmoils, trials, and triumphs. But he has never seen this before.

I know you'll never forgive me fully, but I know that what I did isn't really forgivable. But what may come out of this is something that may be the greatest thing of all: your relationship being fully grounded on trust, and secrets won't need to be kept. Keep in mind that even though you feel betrayed and broken, people still love you.

All my love,

Some Realizations

Goodness life throws many obstacles at you these days. It's starting to get a little ridiculous, but I have to stand my ground here and not lower myself to any particular level. Let me make some points.

In the past few months, Sam:

• has been called selfish and inconsiderate;
• has been unable to keep a secret;
• has been called immature and childish;
• has been a bad friend;
• has been called a NAZI?;
• made other people jealous;
• liked to make people cry;
• has been a shoulder to cry on (for the people I haven't made cry);
• has listened;
• has observed;
• has noticed a certain laxity on your part (tehe);
• has worked;
• has lost friends;
• has been used;
• has been argued with;
• has been talked about behind his back;
• has won two Academy Awards (which contrary to popular belief [and unlike some], I actually earned);
• has thought about college;
• has wanted to punch things, many things;
• has taken 10 deep breaths;
• has not said things to you;
• tried to change for people (bad idea);
• has been walked over;
• has made the best of friends anyway;
  
• has made a pact;
• hasn't thought through how he's going to handle the Graduation of 2010;
  
• has felt perfectly fine with the way things are panning out in this situation;

and most importantly;

• has not cared about what people think, because I am my own person, and I believe what I feel is right. No matter what anyone says or does to me, I will smile, say a little pray to ask God to save them from the people they are, and go on with my life, wishing them perfect happiness in the lack of friends they may get after me. :D
  

God how good it feels to say that.

All my love,


PS, Kelli Smith and Dustin Schroeder, no matter how much you may think all this goes to you, it doesn't. I wish you only the best in all your daily adventures together, and even though you may not see the need, I forgive you. AND I don't care how much of a bigamist that makes me sound, because I stood up for me. (Note how I actually used your names to prevent guessing and talk. It's a great thing to stop.)